I know the future
I know what awaits them.
While watching old movies
I am cursed with knowledge.
I know what lies ahead
And the cold sadness of this knowledge envelops me
Makes it hard to watch
I know what awaits them
I know the future.
I don’t want this knowledge
It hurts
People in old movies
They laugh and cry, they love and hate
Not knowing
And that is how it should be
I don’t like watching old movies
Old movies forcing me to know the future
By knowing the past
The human history
Short breaks of happiness
Between long dark stretches of tragedies and despair
The human history
Full of violence, death and destruction
I don’t like watching old movies
I know what awaits them
Misery, violence and death
But the thought comes to me
What the future holds?
I know it is wrong
I should not ask this
We should not, we cannot know
So we can live
And yet I wonder
I know the past
Just live in the moment we are told
The past is gone
And the future unknown
But the past lives in me
The past is talking to me
About the future
All human suffering
The inhumane brutality and hatred
With a short respite of peace
And how quickly people forget
To live in the moment
Maybe that is how we humans survive
By forgetting
We want so much to be happy
But humanity gets reckless
Again
And suffering returns again
As if punishing us for forgetting
Tragic dilemma
It is so painful to remember
And yet we should not forget
We have to remember the past
In order to have the future
I watch old movies.